Recycled Phrases

finally we have a long awaited break
not that its really long awaited but really the workload makes it feels like this break took an eternity to arrive
finally i can not touch some science books for a day
and that is simply pure pleasure.

was suppose to go clubbing tonight
but it wasnt ladies night, just cause its the eve of public holiday
plan was cancelled cause basically we are too broke to be true
i wish i could pay off that $3oo debt and be debt-free for a long long time
i realise i havent been completely debt-free for a long time
mom called to tell me she was flying off soon for some company trip
i was surprised,
i didnt realised (great daughter right?)
be back soon mom!

i need a shoe bagggggg so i can stop carrying shoe boxes around..retardo

i love girlfriend.

i think its working!
friday was pretty fun, was running with imm peng during the 2.5hr break and i must admit i stopped because i was pretty bored running around the same track
so i stopped at a disappointing distance of 1.2km
but really, showering before cooling down is bad but it feels really damn good? i thought i could skip lesson and just shower my life away
but in the end, i went for lecture
i think im sick of forcing myself to study so i took off today, didnt touch my books at all
i dont know why but i was totally crashed out
missed drums and came up with shit reasons again but anyway i dont really feel bad cause i cant really afford the lesson fees anymore
not at this rate, not when i have to replace my IC for the 2nd time and its gonna cost me 300 bucks
woe to that person who took my wallet
seriously, i wished you would return my cards to me, i can forget about the cash

i think all my friends should really really watch out okay
cause nat phua lost his hp a day after i lost my wallet and claudia lost her wallet the week before and cpl nearly lost her phone today, thank god the security found it
gym session was successful
but i know that i cant do as much as before or maybe the pressure is just not there
but i manage to cycle 10km on the cycling machine
its set that we will gym every week
so therefore, im a succesful campaign planner!
hire me!

dont give up on me, i still love you.

first day of the hectic week and it started real bad
its like, i worked supper club on saturday, reached home on sunday morning 5.30am and i basically just slept till 2pm
so i couldnt sleep at night
and it was so hard waking up in the morning but when i dragged myself up, i realise class starts 30 mins later today so end up i was on time
its really not so bad
we had lunch at NUS, as usual we were making A LOT of noise and talking about crazy people
like literally crazy, like how they imagine other people who are already attached to be their girlfriend, how they tell people that this girl gave him a blowjob etc
seriously, this people need to utilise their talent somewhere else thats more, contributing. for example, art

human anatomy prac wasnt as boring, i was made to eat 2 egg whites, without pepper or any other seasoning and like they had to take a 6 drops of my blood
but i counted 7 holes on my middle finger
jeopardizing my sex life. MAJOR!
now my middle finger is like a dick with STD or smth just that its not overly swollen and gross, just has little spots.
dinner with aj! damn fun.. all the bitching and stuff and im sorry that you have to top up for my meal, im officially broke
i guess my pay has more or less depleted.
i spent 400 + unknowingly, seriously unknowingly
maybe my brain is just failing me, maybe im failing myself.
anyway, the scene at toa payoh mrt is seriously airport like
first, aj and hannah waved to me like im going away for good (behind the glass panel) then at the platform, this couple hugged real tight and the girl entered the train and she was oh so sad
like tearing, hahahah not funny but you get the idea, im lightening things up.

i dont know what i’ll do if you werent my gf.

yesterday was first day back at mimo
and i was on supper club duty
holy cow, i hate the new staffs. actually i hate 2 of the new staffs
those bitches think they’re some kinda shareholder of the restaurant or something
the thing about being in the fnb business is that the people are strange
they are like full-timers doing stuff that most people can do given the experience
but they think they are oh so big deal
please be humble cause i think the job is humble anyway.

anyway i was having a really bad migraine
and the music just kinda make it worse, it keeps my head thumping like crazy
i seriously couldnt focus
damn bad
but i think it sort of cleared up by 1, 2 am and then after that i was super tired
damn embarrassing
i slept at the bar for about 1.5 hours while waiting for the transport
and then i slept all the way to bukit batok, jelapang and because i was the only one left, i tried keeping awake from jelapang to redhill
freaking torturous
i think i still prefer serving brunch

shane looks happier in his new container!
hahaha! that was random

its so many ups and downs, so many incidents to get upset over but i hope you dont lose the point that im still very much in love with you.

i’m on a 3.5 hr break and this is like going to happen every other week
and i tell you, it kills
im on the verge of skipping class but i know i shouldnt start
cause i do know how addictive it is
besides, i get marks for going to class
i feel terribly stress just like when poly first started
and once again, i dont know where im heading
this is so depressing.

one week of school is nearly up and its not too good.
the first day was like,
what am i doing here?
and then i dont remember the days in between
lesson kind of started this week
genetics class was shit. you know why, because i forgot all my cell biology information plus its a rather dry topic plus the lecturer seriously read off the slides (word for word)
best part is, the slides are EXACTLY what’s in the notes
damn i tell you.

so we had to go NUS science co-op to buy a textbook
and mark drove us there
seriously damn cool
i really want to make it there even though i know the chances are superrrr slim
its still good to dream right?
i guess i’ll find something else to do if i fail to make it to med school
there’s always something else.

can i get lost in my daydream? they are usually exciting.

i’m afraid that im gonna messed thing up
i know at times, i can be really psychotic
im sorry
i’m happy that you wanted time alone
because then,
i matter
please dont let me feel like im not.

im home relatively early on a saturday night
like for the first time in months that im on a bus home thats actually packed
i consider that an achievement
i woke up early this morning specially to have breakfast with my gf
are you proud of me?
ok fine, i was like 10-15mins late i suppose
but mac breakfast still makes people day and it could have made my day even better if only the prices werent raised to this extent
oh wells, gst rise yada yada, i think its all a lie to make your customers stay happy.

finally got my haircut in months
elvis was pretty gay as usual but its okay
i love the way gay boys carry themselves, its entertaining and i dont mean it in a bad way
just entertaining!
i changed shane and carmen’s water but im afraid they will die
cause all my previous betta died after i changed their water
so pray for the best, fishy!

i’m a pretty weird kid i know, do i have issues too?

i think its like a ritual to attend herstory parties or something
but it looks like its more or less habitual already
last night was okay
it just could have been better.
im easily annoyed by external factors

we bought a bottle of tequila before heading to st james
i dont know why but i think tequila is extra strong or something
definitely better than vodka
it got all of us high
and it didnt help that the guy who took lemons for us was rich and generous
he invited us to sit with his friends
and he bought us a round of drinks and a bottle of champagne
its still rather unbelievable i guess

do not crash my dancefloor.

leaving for herstory soon but its raining like fuck now
rain is good
it makes you think and makes tv seriel extra nice to watch
im officially addicted to house and heroes which is good since L word is off already
have you ever wondered what special powers would you like to have?
i havent thought about it
but i think you need one that helps you stop lying.

i seriously think its not fun to be consistently lied to
not like the lies are a big deal
they are crazy in fact
but that fact that we are friends and you still cant speak the truth
thats disturbing
and i know its a good sign of depression or personality disorder
get yourself checked.

i feel fucking lazy to move and get out of my house
ive been on the couch the whole day
i seriously need to WALK.